Overall this section proved to overall be a disappointment to me. I was first upset with how the author got rid of Ms. Wilcox’s character by having her going to Paris. She was the perfect role model for Mattie; a successful, assertive, independent woman and writer. However by leaving her running away from her husband and her problems I feel it began the spiral of uncertainty in Mattie’s life.

When I found out her decision to stay and be with Royal I became even more frustrated. I was outraged when I read “I’m not going. I’m not going to New York City… Royal and I… we’re sparking. I’m going to… he’s… I’m staying here. We’re going to be married.” (312). In just these few lines she made it apparent that she was completely letting go of her dreams. I think this realization can easily be tied to her teacher also letting a man have complete control of her life. I found myself angry that she was staying in Northern Woods to live the life that she most definitely does not want. However, as I kept reading it turns out that Royal was merely using Mattie to get a portion of her father’s land. Finding out the truth about the deceiving Royal Loomis and his intentions was shocking. My heart broke for Mattie but I was happy with her final decision to go to New York.

To wrap it up I found myself to be dissatisfied reading the last section of this book. I thoroughly enjoyed reading the other sections of this book and was extremely intrigued by the characters, setting, story, and the writing style. However the ending seems to be lacking the conclusion I feel the story rightfully deserves. Reading the last few pages it seemed almost thrown together which was very unlike the rest of the story. I find myself unsettled with how she left off Grace Brown’s murder and Mattie’s decision to go into the City. I will never know exactly what happened to Grace, who Chester/ Carl was and if he killed her,and also if he will get the punishment that he deserves. Matties future is all up to speculation too; whether she made it to Barnard or not and how that turned out. Also what happened to Ms. Wilcox, Weaver, her family, and the rest of the characters from North Woods. The story leaves me with many unanswered questions but I am left to assume that everythting turned out the way it was went to for Mattie. I can only hope that all of her dreams came trye and she moved on to live a happy successful life.

Blog 4: Pgs. 296-381

     After reading the fourth and final section of A Northern Light by Jennifer Donnelly, I cannot help but be a little disappointed.  I was really hoping that Mattie would do something more with the lettters that reveal so much about a tragic event.  In the end she just leaves the letters on her bosse desk and does nothing more with them.  This just bothers me because I wish that Mattie would have told somebody what she knows about the murder instead of simply just letting it go.  She seems irresponsible to me.  She even says, "No one will ever find out that Grace was pregnant or that Chester Gillette was the father of her child.  Her death will be Carl Graham's fault, and Chester will be free to return to Cortland and have a good and dandy time," (379).  She knows that what she does will allow a man to get away with murder, but swhe does it anyway.  I cannot bring myself to like the way that the author handled this part of the story.  I wish it had ended a little differently.  That being said, I couldn't help but feel joy when Mattie finally was able to go to Barnard.  With Mattie's last words of the book, she says, "To Amsterdam and Albany and beyond.  To New York City.  To my future.  My life," (380).  Finally, Mattie gets what she wants.  A shot at her dreams is all she wanted the entire novel and she finally got it.  I thought that in this aspect of the book, the Author ended it perfectly.  It was simple, yet it was powerful in sending a message on not giving up on something you truly believe in and want for yourself.  Despite the odds, Mattie has prevailed and as a reader you cannot feel happier for her.

     Also, it has been mentioned time after time after time, but I cannot seem to get over how different the times are now than they were in 1906 when this novel takes place.  We get yet another example of how just the prices of things were so dramatically different than they are now when Mattie gives Weaver seven dollars.  "What's this for?" Weaver asks, "For your train ticket to New York," (375).  Call the papers!  People are getting great deals on train tickets!  If we saw these prices for train tickets nowadays we'd think it was a huge bargain,  but then we remember that seven dollars was a lot of money for them back then and it's something that we are astonished by.

 

For more info on why prices have changed so dramatically, check out                                             http://www.economist.com/node/457272

Pages 296-380 Reflection

     We have finally reached the end of the book. Though the ending wasn’t necessarily up to par with the rest of the book, I would say it was still a very good book. Just as I had hoped, the author delivered several more thought-provoking statements that I really caught hold of. One was when Mattie was talking about one of her calves. Daisy, one of their best cows, had died recently and one of her babies was struggling with the loss. Mattie says, “…he wanted Daisy. But he couldn’t have Daisy, so he finally took what was offered. Like we all do” (299). By talking about this scenario even with a cow, Mattie has hit upon one of the sad truths of life. Humans are settlers. Not settlers like they settle land, but settlers in the way of giving up because something “isn’t worth the effort.” Now in the cow’s case, obviously fighting harder isn’t going to bring its mother back. However, most often when people settle for less they are doing so because they don’t feel like fighting for it. Mattie’s tone when she thinks about this points to the idea that she is saddened by this fact. She knows that certain things just aren’t worth arguing, like the loss of a loved one but something like our soccer team playing in the play-offs is definitely worth fighting for. Say we settled for winning one play-off game and decided we weren’t going to try too hard tonight. We would have driven an hour and a half and played half-heartedly and most likely lost. Instead, we weren’t satisfied and we played our hardest and won. We are in the quarterfinals for it. Some things are just worth fighting for.

     The next topic I picked up on was a sad but subtle one. When Mattie’s friend Weaver is thinking about not going to college Mattie says “‘Just go! Before you’re stuck here forever. Like an ant in pitch.’ Like me” (358). I say this is sad because it seems like Mattie has given up hope. I’ve talked a lot about the potency of hope, both good and bad, in my previous posts. It’s upsetting to me that after everything she’s gone through she has nearly accepted the fact that she isn’t going to escape her farm life. The author does a fantastic job of making the reader feel sympathetic to Mattie and her current situation.

     And lastly, there was one more of those thought provoking quotes that I thought I should discuss. Even after Mattie reads all the letters from Grace Brown, She still doesn’t want to burn them. She is worried that Grace’s voice will never be heard again. She goes on to elaborate about what she has come to understand about the concept of voice: “Voice, according to Miss Wilcox, is not just the sound that comes from your throat but the feeling that comes from your words” (361). Though this quote comes relatively late in the text, is emphasizes a theme that has been obvious throughout the entire text. This is that words are powerful tools that can do good or harm, so they must be chosen with the utmost of care. Mattie’s obsession with words has taught her this but I believe a lot of time this lesson can be forgotten. In the end this book contains a lot of valuable lessons like this one and I think it is certainly worth your time.

Pages 296-380 Reflection

     This last section of the book was a banger filled with some surprises, and some victories.  Some of the surprises that came with this ending section of the book were near the beginning of this reading.  After having a week off of work, Mattie has to go back and she is spending her last day with Miss Wilcox and Royal Loomis, and before leaving "Well, here then,' Royal suddenly said.  He held out a small square of tissue paper. It was folded over several times. There was something inside of it. I opened it and saw a dull gold ring" (298).  So Royal asks to marry her. This is a surprise, but also it could be seen that it was going to happen soon.  With the past incidents between the two of them in the book, things were heating up and Royal finally asked her. Mattie said yes to Royals request, and knew that this would kill her chances of going to Barnard.  However this was not the only surprise that occurred in this section of the reading.  I felt that this was even more surprising was that Miss Wilcox was leaving.  A package had been sent to Mattie, but was unable to get to her when Miss Wilcox had sent it herself, in this package she also got several books and five dollars from her great teacher. "As I wish to leave you something by which to remember me. I am departing Eagle Bay tomorrow. I won't be teaching next year. I had hoped to tell you this in person, but Mrs. Morrison was unable to locate you" (305).  This is the big shocker of the section, and Mattie is heartbroken so she leaves to go and speak with her in person back near home.  Mattie proceeds to go to Miss Wilcox's house and finds out that she must leave or her husband with come get her, and although really not wanting her to leave Mattie accepts what is happening.  I feel that the reason why she wants her to stay is because she is thinking that she is going to stay in her hometown when marrying Royal, because if she was going to Barnard then she would leave her anyway, but since she plans to stay she has to tell Miss Wilcox why she is so sad that she is leaving.  Mattie even tells her teacher leaves her feeling good a brave about herself and she does not want her to leave because she will feel powerless.
     Finally for what I would say is the victory of this final section, is that Mattie Gokey finally decides that she wants to go to college!  After a long time of hard work, thinking, and discoveries, Mattie finally decides that she wants to go to Barnard. But its not a way that everyone knows where she is, she leaves early on in the morning and only tells one person, and that is Weaver. Weaver asks Mattie why he is going, and she replies "Because Grace Brown can't " (376). Because Grace Brown can no longer fulfill what she wants to do, Mattie says its for her.  I think it is because it has been what she always wanted to do, and she snow going to be able to do it.  So as she finally goes to the dream college that she was dreaming of, she abandons the life that she had as a farm girl, and gets ready for her future, and her new life.
     I really liked how this book finished up, and I am glad that she finally got to do the things that she wanted to do, making all the hard work she put in worth something.




Hyperlink: Barnard College: http://www.nyc-architecture.com/HAR/ny_col_barnard01.jpg

Pages 193-295 Reflection

     In the third section of the book, some very unexpected events happened.  Although unexpected, that is not to say that they were not meaningful and important.  As this book is continuing on, you can see a character change in the main character Mattie Gokey.  One incident where a change may be spotted is when she finally gets the job at the Glenmore Hotel.  I’m disappointed with her fathers ways, “I was to receive four dollars a week. Pa said I could keep a dollar back for myself.  I told him I would keep two or I would not go” (242).  It is great to see Mattie finally standing up to her father and asserting herself telling him what she wants to do.  But I would like to ask why her father is so stubborn in the first place.  I understand that the whole family isn’t doing so great, but if Mattie has a future let her live it.

     Another shocker was the whole incident with Mattie and Royal.  Things seem to be heating up in this relationship, and Royal asks Mattie to marry him!  This is very contradicting because if they marry each other then say good-bye to Barnard College and that whole dream thing she had because it’s OVER.  I can’t wait to see what will happen later in the book and which path she will take.  Another thing that can leave someone in awe including Mattie herself is that her teacher, Miss Wilcox is one of the authors/poets that she reads about.  “Baxter? Baxter! Then you’re not…then that…that makes you…” “Emily Baxter, poet.” (221).  This is amazing because Emily Baxter is the author of one of the poems that Mattie is reading.  One question I would like to ask is why didn’t Miss Wilcox let Mattie know who she was?  There must be a hidden reason behind that, and I would like to see if there is ever a reason for not telling. 

     Another topic that struck very interesting to me was the speaking of God being a man or woman.  Obviously there are different views of men and women, and that adds to the unique qualities that every individual has.  While Mattie is thinking to herself she strikes an appealing hypothesis. She thinks, “What if God was a woman? Would the pop be out of a job? Would the president be a woman, too? And the governor? And the sheriff? And when people got married, would the man have to honor and obey? Would only women be allowed to vote?” (208).  His is interesting because I have never thought of this, and I’m sure many others haven’t either.  We all consider God a man but why? I like to see this kind of thinking by Mattie Gokey, and as usual she always finds ways to impress me.  This is a very serious topic, and I hope that the author will continue throwing these types of questions at us, waiting for the reader to answer. I think the finish to this book will be a strong one, and I can’t wait to continue reading.

Pages 193-295 Reflection

     In my recent posts, I mentioned how different Mattie’s way of life is from our modern day lives. This theme continues in this section. By now, if you don’t know that Mattie loves English and literature, you must be reading another book. However, the exact extent of her love for literature becomes clearer in this section. During a visit at Miss Wilcox’s home, Mattie comes across a sight that would have a much less powerful impact on the youth of today than it does on her. As she turns into a room from the hallway, she recalls, “What I saw next stopped me dead in my tracks. Books. Not just one or two dozen, but hundreds of them. In crates. In piles on the floor. In bookcases that that stretched from floor to ceiling and lined the entire room. I turned around and around in a slow circle, feeling as if I’d just stumbled into Ali Baba’s cave. I was breathless, close to tears, and positively dizzy with greed” (199). Though it’s a long quote, I feel that the use of it in its entirety really captures how Mattie feels in that moment. When she states that she “stopped dead in her tracks” I felt like she found a murder scene or something. Instead, she found some books. Now I understand that for Mattie, this was a big deal. Books were not as common as they are today and when you combine that with her love for literature it makes sense that she would be so excited. The author’s use of descriptive language also aids in readers’ connection with the text. You can picture little Mattie in this massive room with books covering every wall. She says she was almost crying. Phrases like these make her true feelings evident. I found it ironic that she was “dizzy with greed.” Nowadays, if we found out someone had a massive collection of books, they probably wouldn’t be accused of being greedy for that reason alone. Yet innocent Mattie seems to feel guilty that she is in the midst of such a massive collection. She is feeling greedy, emotional, and downright overwhelmed. I just found her reaction very interesting.  

     Later on in this section, I found a quote that peaked my interest even more. As I’ve said before, I love listening to unique perspectives and hearing my ideas challenged. That’s the only way to improve our minds. Mattie is thinking to herself when she hits upon a fascinating concept. She thinks, “Jeezum… What if God was a woman? Would the pope be out of a job? Would the president be a woman, too? And the governor? And the sheriff? And when people got married, would the man have to honor and obey? Would only women be allowed to vote?” (208). I had honestly never thought about this before. Not only does it raise the questions that are explicitly stated, but it also begs the question, why is God considered a man?  Why does Roman Catholicism say that man was created first? I’m sure you could go your whole life studying these questions and still find no definite answer. Questions like that are so fascinating to me. These help me make a real deep connection with the text that I truly enjoy. I hope the author can finish strong with some more seriously philosophical questions that are just begging to be contemplated.

Blog 3: Pgs.193-295

     Once again I enjoyed the reading.  This third section finally gave me some answers to the questions that I have been contemplating as I read sections one and two.  For example, I finally found out why these letters are so important.  They give Mattie the answers to Grace Brown's death!  As Mattie has been reading the letters to and from Chester Gillette, she notices that Chester seems to have his best times sailing on a canoe.  Grace of course died drowning.  She concludes that Chester knew how to handle a canoe well and could swim.  Mattie is no fool, and is able to put two and two together.  When talking about herself she says, "She feels sick, so sick she could vomit.  Because she thinks she knows why Chester brought Grace here.  And it wasn't to elope," (238).  As much as Mattie doesn't want to believe it she feels that Chester murdered Grace.  I sympethize with Mattie at this time because she is faced with a huge dilemma.  What does she do at this point?  I'm sure she is scared and doesn't know if she should tell someone or not.  She must be feeling so many emotions that I can only begin to imagine must feel like all bundled into one.
     Also, I know that it has been mentioned over and over, but I am still not over the fact that the times have changed so dramatically.  1906 may as well be a foreign land, nevermind a different time.  At the very beginning of the section Lou is astonished when she sees an automobile.  Mattie says, "It could only be some well-heeled driving it, or Mr. Sperry, or Miss. Wilcox.  No one else could afford one," (193).  This made me appreciate everything I have and how most people are much better off today.  Today, I don't think I know any family that doesn't own at least one car.  My family has three.  However, in Mattie's day it was more common for a family to not own an automobile of some sort.  Another example of how the times have changed is displayed when Mattie is talking about the poem by Emily Baxter (Miss Wilcox) and says, "Would only women be allowed to vote?" (208).  I think sometimes we take for granted how equal our time has become in the United States.  This quote reminds us of a time when only men could vote and women didn't have as many rights as American men did.  Thankfully, times have changed and we are all equals in the eyes of our government.
     I have enjoyed the first three sections of this book very much, and am really looking forward to what the end of the novel may have in store.

 

Section 3: 193- 295

                This section of the book proved to be quite eventful. It was filled with ups and downs and many surprises. An important new development that I was slightly disappointed about was that Mattie finally gets to go work in the hotel. The only reason I’m not happy that her Pa let her is because he did because he needed the money and he’s going to use the money that she works for. I liked when she said, “I was to receive four dollars a week. Pa said I could keep a dollar back for myself. I told him I would keep back two or I would not go” (242). This shows that she is starting to stand up for herself. Matt is growing up, becoming a woman, and getting a voice for herself. There are many other aspects of growing up that also become apparent. Royal asks her to marry him! I was excited when I first read this because it seems as though she is infatuated with him. However, as I kept thinking about it I soon began to feel hesitant about the whole situation. If she marries him than there is no way she can go Barnard. College is her dream and I feel it would be a mistake for her to give up on her dream over one boy. Relationships can be a tricky part of life though, and we discover more about other relationships as we continue to read as well. She reads more of the letters and begins to discover more about the relationship between Grace Brown and Chester/ Carl. I find this part of the story to be frustrating still. I want to learn more about her death and Mattie’s life working at the hotel. However, in both parts of the story she is close to Ms. Wilcox and spends more time with her. I was shocked, just like Mattie was, to find out who she really is. Her real name was Emily Baxter and she was “the country’s most scandalous lady poet” (223). I really like her character and role in the story; I’m happy that someone finally supports Matt. I find the end of this section to be completely devastating though. When I read that her whole family gets sick my heart dropped. When she said “Then I heard the sound of choked, quite tears, as I sat down on the top of the stairs and wept” (295) I wanted to cry along with her. Mattie’s been through so much at this point I wish I could help her. I am hoping by the last section her life starts to turn around and everything works out perfectly.

Pages 98-192 Reflection

     After reading the second section of this story, It was amazing to see how things can seem to be going smoothly but then eventually crash right back down. Looking at the pages 98-192, I was searching similarities or differences between the life of Mattie Gokey, and also my life. The first time where their had been a very different reaction between what my father and her father would have done.  When her father arrives at home and sees her sleeping on the kitchen table, he gets angry with the decision she had made to buy a notebook. Upon finding out how much money it cost, he says "You mean to tell me we've been eating mush for days on end and you had sixty cents all this time" (99)?  This is a crazy incident because if I had sixty cents my father would say big deal it's sixty cents. The reason for this is because sixty cents to them is a lot deferent then sixty cents now. Apparently you can actually buy food and make meals other than mush with sixty cents, but now sixty cents probably couldn't even get you mush to eat.
   Later on in the book, she is cleaning her Aunt Josie's house, and just discussing about people like Royal Loomis, and how since her mother is gone she cannot support Mattie as well as she is needed. So the Aunt says that Mattie can ask her anything, so she asks what she has been wanting to the whole time at her house which was that she had made it into college, and if she could pay for her books and train ticket to New York because she had money, and she reacted in a very obscure way, "You are just as bad as your no-account brother, selfish and thought less. It must come from the Gokey side, because it doesn't come from the Robertsons. What on earth can you be thinking? Leaving your sisters when they need you? And for a terrible place like New York" (113)!  If I had gotten a full ride scholarship to a school because of academic grades and for being a good writer, and my family could afford a plane ticket and books, the last thing my cousins and aunts would do is leave me in the dust and saying no. It is so confusing to see how when given an opportunity like this, not being able to take, and I don't think this would happen to me or nearly every kid in the world if given this chance. One more case where I can see a connection to my life is when she is figuring out how to do polynomials! Weaver said "Figuring polynomials is just a matter of simplifying a bunch of values to a few. Just like boiling down a lot of sap to a little bit of syrup. It's easy, so stop being such a mule" (121).  Ahh great polynomials, as Weaver said it is simple, but first the process is needed, and if you do not know the first step, then it is hard to get to the second, and the third. Polynomials are hard, but if you just concentrate they become easy, as Weaver is telling Mattie to stop being such a donkey.
     This was a great section of reading, as Mattie experiences several different experiences, and also receives a gift of a pen, and wonders of how amazing it will be if she gets her own dictionary.  Still not unfolded all the way is the death of Grace Brown, but the author is definitely planning on making a bold entrance soon enough in the novel.